Embrace Your Journey: Conquer Fear and Pursue Your Purpose

Overwhelming amount of decisions

I’m on a mission to create the life of my dreams. All you need to know about the life of my dreams right now is that it involves working for myself. I love the idea of creating my own schedule and relying on myself. Right now, that is the goal. I am nowhere near that. I am like a flower seed you buy at Home Depot that hasn’t even made it to the soil yet.

When I made this decision, I knew there were going to be a lot of ups and downs. I knew there were going to be days where my natural instincts to scroll Instragram and youtube would try to kick in. And sure enough they have. But that’s what I signed up for. I grew tired of the comfortability of my life and demanded more of myself, fully accepting whatever challenges would come my way. One giant barricade I knew I would have to push through was indecision.

In the last week or so my mind has become so clouded and busy. It has felt like the 15 freeway in Utah, during rush hour WITH pouring rain. The worst combination imaginable. But just like you do when in traffic, I kept inching along. I kept moving. Yes, occasionally checking my phone, only to remind myself that I am still “driving” and need to keep my eyes on the road.

Although I don’t think I arrived to where I wanted to with a definitive decision made on what I want to do, I still made progress. I inched forward with one thing at a time. I ultimately arrived at writing this blog post which feels good and feels right.

Along the way, I was getting so caught up with what everyone was doing I had to remind myself to relax and do it my way. Here is exactly what I wrote in my journal while I was struggling through this metaphorical “traffic”:

“Rome wasn’t built in a day bro. Just focus on consistency and trying new things. You will find your way. Be patient and have fun. Don’t get connected to the results, and just press forward. Oh, and do it YOUR way. Don’t worry what everyone else is doing.”

It reminds me of some advice I read in a book once which was to talk to yourself like how you talk to a close friend. We are 100 times harder on ourselves than anyone else. A little kindness towards ourselves can go a long way.

If you like me, struggle with making decisions that feel BIG, just remember to keep going. Take one step at a time and trust that if you show up and do something, anything… things will start to align. The universe rewards action. And remember, BE KIND TO YOURSELF!!